Everything is a blur. Idk. Idk what’s happening with my life right now! Even though final exams are over, I still have a lot of things to do. I’m so happy that I actually survived from the biggest wave of challenges in my entire highschool life and yeah, I know there are still a lot of things for me to do, and there a lot of things that bothers me. I guess I still can’t get my sleep schedule back huhu.. ugh just give me a break.
And one thing, college life is just around the corner and I STILL HAVE NO FINAL DECISION ON WHAT COURSE AND WHERE TO STUDY huhuhu. I want to take up Multimedia Arts in De La Salle-College of Saint Benilde but mom discouraged me to take up that course cos yeah i don’t have a future with it daw but I am still hoping that she’ll let me study there even though there is only 0.001% chance. I don’t understand her anymore. She ate all her words. She broke all her promises. And she’s mad at me cos I’m mad at her ugh who wouldn’t be yknow!!!!!!!!!!! I am so tired being compared with other people. I am so tired with being deprived from almost all I want in my life. I am so tired of being manipulated. I am so tired with living in the shadows of someone else’s dream. I understand that you want a bright future for me but taking up engineering is not the only way to have one. And you, being my mom,
should must understand that I have feelings, too. I get hurt, too. But I am just your son, you are my boss. I am obliged to follow every rule and to follow the things you want for me and that I have no right to complain. WHAT IS FREEEEEEEEDOM.